this will most likely be the last entry in this xanga.  to all my riends i'm sure you've heard the news.  i will miss all of you whom i hold dear, and i'm sorry that this is just a surprise.  (merry christmas?) i have a job now working at a bar (they messed up.).  but take care all of you and i'll hopefully, maybe see in the future.

good bye, S.

Currently Listening Mr. A-Z By Jason Mraz see related

yes i know that all are probably annoyed with my lapses in between posts......but screw you all................................................not really. 

i feel perturbed.  not at anyone else, just myself.  i'm making quite a mess of things.  i am lapse in my school work and i find that i am slowly but surely falling in line with apathy yet AGAIN.  the stresses of this monotonous, everyday life is starting to take its toll on everything i do.  high school is so blah....everything just seems so pointless.  i wanna quit and get a GED, but the family will probably disown me and i don't know where i would go.  they have this set of standards for me they've set in their heads and they try to tell me otherwise but i know they're lying.

well you know what?  their expectations can kiss my fat, white ass.  all the bullshit assignments, the pointless dailywork/homework.  seriously!!  when will i ever need to know avagodro's number in my life?!?!?!?!?!  can't they see that i'm not f-ing happy? 

what the hell am i saying?  happiness is an invention by the rich people to make poor folk jealous.

i'm headed to starkville tomorrow w/big coop father.  maybe i'll forget about everything for just a little while longer.  so long ya'll.........

epiphany of the moment:  Mickey Mouse is an uncle Tom living in a white man's castle while we stand oppressed!!!

Currently Listening Black Crowes - Greatest Hits 1990-1999: Tribute Work in Progress By The Black Crowes thorn in my pride see related

i'm in school posting!!  in the library!!!!!  i get caught i'm dead.  ohtwell...they can schlob ona my knob.  hehehhehehehhehe.  i might actually be seeing GoF 2night after all.  so esteban has spanked the system.  smack it.  anyway that i wants it.....like a dirty venezuelan lesbian crack whore....okay that's just utterly nasty.  i need a slap for that one.  when someone reads this, the next time you see me just smack me on the back of the head cause i deserve it for that venezuelan thing.

later.  i'm off.........

Currently Gaming Spider-Man 2: The Movie 2 By Activision see related

no i am not dead (for some reason beyond my comprehension).  computers w/ internet connection or somewhat of a holy grail for me, and i have finally, temporarily ended my quest.  i'll be back on the old dustry trail after this post, so needless to say they will be few and far in between.  things are going great.  i'm complacent for the moment.  yay.....

anyways.....GoF the movie comes out Fri. and i'll be damned if i ain't gonna see it. fo sho fo sho fo sho.  i'm chillin w/ father cooperus de kirby and needless to say its an adventure as always.  hollaback crackaz.